Sometimes it is hard to believe that I have life after work. I work so hard and spend so much time at work that by the time I get home I have a hard time knowing how to use my time at home in a meaningful way. Often I have spent so much of my energy at work that by the time I get home I feel too tired to do the dishes, sweep the floor, or even practice a hobby. Many nights I find myself feeling drained and watching a lot of TV. To be completely honest, I am not sure if it is typical for somebody who works at least 40 hours a week to feel so drained by the end of the day or if my disability genuinely plays a role. Perhaps both?
Life after work is important because I find myself letting my spouse do many things for me that in actuality I would really prefer to be doing myself. I like being independent and maintaining the abilities I have. I cannot speak for everyone who has a disability, but I think a lot of individuals with disabilities can relate. I have spent so much of my life fighting for the right to do things on my own, without help, and I am finding myself feeling successful at work because of this. However, after work I am too tired to do things on my own and so I find myself behaving contrary to my values and personal goals.
Being a disabled professional adds a layer of complexity to an already many layered life. This is simply a reality I accepted when I decided to be a professional with disabilities. I am proud of the work I am doing. I am thankful to be able to go home and watch TV. I have the confidence that at some point I will be able to balance the amount of energy I am using at work so that I can maintain the independence I expect from myself and value at home.
Please share with me the techniques you are using to balance your energy throughout the day to make the most out of your time!